hunny that's dumb  going to go tho

Haha, seriously. It better work, for $300.
I'm glad Alivia's out of the hospital. What was wrong with her?

what was she in the hospital for?? anyway like I said I wasnt trying to be a bitch but babies are always my main priority in any situation Im sure you can understand that I cant help it I just love kids..

anyway your right i dont know the situation between you and him i was just saying that its kinda messed up to lead someone on whos in that situation and f*** with other people you know what i mean?Its just a sucky situation exspecially when hes in the one hes in...but yeah I hope Alivias Good!!! and Im sorry If i sounded mean!

I dont mean to sound like a bitch..

but if you've been partying the last 4 days then wheres aliva been I sure hope she hasn't been with you because thats no good to be partying with your baby in the house when everyones drinking

and honestly its kinda f***ed up to cheat on your man exspecially in the postion he's in..I mean god how would you feel??

just do whatever feels right

follow your heart

wow thats f***ed up she got in the babys face...

Shes a cutieeeee

Very beautiful daughter!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh, I love babies! lol.

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Wow. Many Problems my dude.  My parents try to tell me what to do with my life. I hate that!! Glad you had great Sex!! Thx for sharing!! lol. Well. . . .all iI have to say is . They are not you. f***ing ignore them if they tell you what you should do. You make the choices not them got dammit. YOU ARE THE PILOT IN YOUR LIFE! lol sorry I got cheesy. I dont know what to do about the getting evicted thing. srry dude.

She is so cute!

I'm sorry for your abortion.

[SlayerChick]

myspace.com/yeahbiitchh

theres mine..add me :) you can see pictures of trenten

To the person below, how do you know she would regret an abortion? I know plenty of people who have had abortions who don't regret it. I'd find it more regretful to be forced to have an unwanted child.

If you don't think you can handle another child and YOU want an abortion then don't let any do-gooders talk you out of it. If you decide that YOU want to keep the child then good luck to you. It will be hard but plenty of people have done it before you, it's not impossible.

if u wana txt me go ahead and txt my moms phone ok or just call my cell if you want sometime and i will deff call u when i can keep alivia for awhile i just been busy give her kiss for me tell her i love her!! ohhh ya idk if u care or not jacobs coming home for good his plane arrives in indy 10pm wednesday night....

Im glad to hear that you 2 are good!

Ashley

the baby is so adorable.  she's so cute all curled up with the teddy bear.  you're sis is really pretty too. i like the bottom pic of her.

That pic of her is so sweet!

Ashley

To me it sounds like she isnt a friend at all. I would just drop her on her ass and forget about her. She sounds like she is nothing but trouble.

Ashley

i hope you will have enough time to sleep and catch up on everything... and i hope she sleeps for  while so you can too...

later ^.^

yeah that is why your stomach hurts!! your cramping, your on your female time :)

Just lay down and rest, take an advil, that will make you feel much better!

i know how you feel

SAMMY

She is so cute!

Ashley

love the pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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The pics are so cute!

Ashley

She is so cute. DeLanie is 5 weeks today.LOL!

ashley

wow theres the girl i have only seen 2x since she has been born. wonder why? omg i cant write this because more tears just started down my face. its been like that since saturday night as if you care. please let her know that i love her so much and im so happy she's here and im about the only one who is dying to see her because everyone else has....besides her father....i've told everyone to stop calling my house about you and alivia not only because is it sickening....i start crying and i have twice hyperventalated and lost my breath. once on sunday of course when i was thrown out and on wednesday when i didnt hear from you. i knew it would be like this. i blame myself because i was the stupid one. you have no idea of the what the feeling is like when you cant be a part of your best friend having her baby. as i told you before....the 2nd depressing time on my list. this will haunt you amanda it will. i have told my mother and john when my child is born you are not to be near me when i'm in the hospital. because i know i will want you to be there, but they have promised to remind me. and if i do let you in there....something else bad will happen. its called karma.

on other note, i myself have been in the hospital since late tuesday night. the migraine wouldnt go away from sunday. and of course i needed some oxygen and pain medication. but right now im feeling really good. im strong woman as i have been through tough times as you have. i can get through anything if i can get through this. you and alivia are passing through my mind every minute of the day. amanda noone will take your place i promise. i hope you have stopped and thought about all of the good i have done for you not only throughout your pregnancy but in our entire friendship. i look throughout my house and everything reminds me of you. i have that bassinet and i stare at it because its empty, when your favorite t pain song comes on in my car, when i play cards with my mom, when im alone i look to my couch which is your favorite spot in my house, and all the other junk. i just pray and hope you have thought of me amanda. if not the pain keeps coming.

but like i said im feeling much better and today i laughed alot. feels good. but i love you and i love your daughter and no nothing will make me turn away. i know you are going to be a good mom. but i hope you can still be a good friend. because as i told you once before and this statement still stands....i would take a bullet for you or your daughter.

anywayz i cant meet you. my mom gets paid in the morning and after we cash her check im taking my car back to the garage. i took it to maxs auto glass and the man was so f***ing drunk and telling me everythings f***ed up with my window, which i know its not because i have never had a problem with it. so im taking it somewhere more dependable. as far as i know the guy said he knows whats wrong and my car will be done by 2pm friday or before they close. yes its been a rough week. but ok its up to you to get ahold of me. you know my numbers. i wont yell or bitch....i will be so happy...IM BEGGING DONT LEAVE ME OUT OR PUSH ME AWAY...I MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPLAIN....IM WAITING....xoxoxo love u love u love u love u

(( yes anna called johns house and we are in big trouble, maybe another reason why i passed out on the floor tuesday night idk maybe im psyco ))

Sooooooooooooooooo adorable. I'm sooo happy for you! YOURE A MOTHER!

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congrats

tell little alvia(sry if i spelled it wrong) its time to come out

good Luck! Its hard to believe that just last month I was right where you are now.

Ashley

aw so your rdy for your baby hehe and you just want  to kill your doctor lol, have fun with your sis.

fly

I do not know what I am having. I kind of like the surprise of not knowing. When I was pregnant with my son I didnt find out either... Yet somehow I was positive that I was having a boy. This time around I have no idea... I had a C-section with my son. He was breech *head up* and also over 9lbs. I will ve having a C-section this time around too. I really dont want to take any chances.  I wish I 9 months !! I am jealous :p I looked at your shower pictures :) What a nice big belly !!! I have the same stretch marks as you.  I somehow got more stretch marks this time around..  Ahwell. least we will have healthy babies to show for the marks :D

-Jenn

good luck. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed

[ShamelessPain]

wow that sounds like a huge change from before with him!

and wow 4 more weeks to go!?!?!

CRAZY!

seems so fast.

good luck with everything

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I LOVE LOVE THE PICTURES! the baby is growing so much in there!

aww

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I love the belly pic! You are almost there, not much longer and she will be in your arms. I know how you feel. BUt it is amazing once you get to hold them. You will love every minute of it. The staples didnt hurt at all getting them out. I never even felt her doing anything, even though I knew she was. That is the only thing about the c-section that hasnt hurt. LOL!

Ashley

lol That scream fest lol my little 16 year old cousin just went one day this week she hasn't stopped talking about it yet

your right this is the year of girls one of my friends just had a girl and my other friends lil girl is due christmas eve

well hope you have a good day

thats cool.

=]

Hey,

Your entry caught my eye because I'm also pregnant - only like 17 weeks, though...  congrats!  I'm guessing you are having a girl?  I'm curious as to what concert you went to? My hubby and I saw Tool about a month ago.  A very cool show... we are training the baby to like the music we like. LOL :)

When I was pregnant with Levi I was really scared of having him naturally. Then when it came down to it and I had the emergency c-section I knew that it was best for him. But the pain is way worse. I hurt for so long after the c-section and my scar I never thought it was going to be healed enough to not hurt. It is just much harder that way.

Ashley

your daughters name is pretty!Jadyn Rose does sound cool but I don't know if I want to use Rose cause my other daughters name is Sunshine Rose lol lol!But I will think about thanks for the idea!!

-Celeste

That's so exciting that you're almost 34 weeks!  I read that you're from Muncie, is that close to the border of IL?  I'm in Chicago, and it's been HOT here too!  Have fun at the concert, but be careful!

Just wanted to say thanks for adding me to your favorites.  I really hope things get better for you.  Just try to always keep in mind, you have a beautiful baby girl on the way.  When things become too much, just think of how much you love her and how much she loves and needs you.  I like your diary, I added you too!

oh wow gonna have a big baby huh, do you know how much the baby weights now?.

fly

so when are you due? your belly is so cute!!

:*:KeLsEy:*:

Wow that must be sooo exciting! I hope the delivery goes okay! Wishing you the best!

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I know what you mean. It has got over 100 here the past few days. I think I might just die. Its way to hot and way to hot to be over 38 weeks pregnant!

Ashley

very precious pics!  I know how you feel about the whole labor thing!  I am nervous too!  I will be strong if you are...   Have a great night!